Fear

 How do I describe it? It is unsettling, unnerving and definitely unwanted.  It is a fear of failing and being told one more time that I'm not good enough, smart enough, or capable enough.  

I had recently turned an old wine bottle into a lamp. I enjoyed the beautiful color as the sun shined through and decided to use the subject for practicing the manual settings on my camera. Knowing the risks, I placed it on an edge and took a few photos when a huge gust of wind came and knocked it over! Glass and oil went everywhere! Turns out the broken glass was beautiful for photographing. 

I have a fear of failure. In my photography skills and nursing skills. It isn't motivating, it is hindering. The question always lingers... what if I fail? That is when the broken glass made me realize that, YES, we might fail when we try things! But even then, is it all that bad if we do? We can find beauty in our failures and like glass our brokenness can be made into something far beyond what we expected.

 We find a new strength in ourselves and try again. 

The name of the wine was "Relax"... well fitted to the situation/lesson.

I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears. 

Psalms 34:4 

Out of Focus:

We went to the lake this past weekend to go fishing since long boarding isn't much of an option here. We also discussed where our focus was and realized that we become so easily distracted by unimportant situations or things in our lives. We take the bait of something less satisfying then what God would have for us. We are constantly having to recheck ourselves and refocus. 

Are you out of focus today?  

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. -Matt 6:33

Below:  

-The first photo is focused on a fishing bait

-The second is an out of focus sunset 

-And the last two photos are refocused shots.